I think there can be many causes. I'd like to list what caused mine today.
- Daddy is at work. He is working 60 hours a week. When he is home, he's too exausted to do anything. He either needs to rest or work on school work. He is no longer cheerful at home. This saddens me to the depths of my heart.
- When your child, whom you assume is taking a nap so that you can do the millions of chores that need to be done., calls you from her room. Then, when you enter you find her bottomless with poop smeared EVERYWHERE inside her crib. Including falling out the side onto the floor. All over the rails. And, globs on the sheets. To top it off, she's smiling, as if to say she's proud of her accomplishment.
So, what ensues from such stress as listed above? Mommy Rage.
Now, I will list the symptoms of mommy rage.
- Screaming
- Yelling
- Saying curse words (not at the same time as in room with child)
- Gnashing of teeth
- Holding hands behind back so as not to strike child, who is now looking confused and pouting, not smiling.
- Slamming fists into bathroom countertops asking WHY?
- Not feeling content with just that because nothing broke, so throwing hairdryer (It didn't break, but it startled me when it came on.)
- Finally, feeling tons of guilt from acting like a maniac. Then, hugging gently and saying "Sorry. I love you. Mommy just doesn't like poop."
So, there you have it. For those of you that think that I have it all together, now you know. I struggle with moments of mommy rage. I have a feeling I'm not alone. But, I'd like to know for sure.
Happy Holidays!
5 comments:
You are definitely not alone! And, someday you will look back at this and laugh I'm sure. (Although I haven't had to deal with the poop smearing yet, so it's easy for me to say.)
Sage made poop murals three times. She would poop during her nap, remove her diaper and paint. It would be in the spindles of the crib and all over the wall. The last time she did it she was about one and a half and there was a giant smiley face in the middle of it. At the time I was way too disgusted to take a picture, but now I kind of wish that I had.
Wow, that sounds like a rough day. That is one we haven't experienced yet. Thank goodness.
Oh Dawn...my parents would so be cracking up right now because when I was about Allyson's age I did the dreaded poop painting! They tell that story whenever they get the chance and they laugh about it now so maybe you will too one day!
I also share your Mommy Rage... you are not alone. These years are hard and even though we have guilt over some of our actions hopfully we are making up for them with so much more good stuff!!
Sorry to hear about your bad day. I guess this is what I have to look forward too. :-P
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